Hard Times

We all have had hard times. But did you ever feel like you were the only one? Well sometimes I think that even though I know it's not true. Well yesterday I got in this frame of mind that I was going to go driving. I know I'm crazy. but I really miss it. I love to drive. It's so hard just to sit around the house and really do nothing. I always wondered what it would be like just to relax not have to do anything. And now I know. It was okay at first, but now it's really boring. I can only get on the computer so many times a day. Watch TV only so much. If I could do something else I would. I really learned allot from this. I sit and wonder if that's why I'm going through this. But I'm not the only one My son's and My husband is going through this too. I not only have to be strong for me I need to be strong for them too. I sit and think about all the times I told my son I was too busy to play with him or I couldn't do this or that. I wish I could do that now. Maybe I needed to stop look at my life and change allot of things about it. I used to complain about allot of petty stuff. I took advantage of allot of things in life. This is definitely a wake up call. I know I can't be perfect. But I need to focus on life and what it means to me. I really want to live life to it's fullest. I need to get better not just for me but for my son and my step sons too. They all look at me for support and to show them how to be good men one day. We went to dairy queen the other day and we all had cheese burgers. And Floyd commented this one of the best burgers I had in along time. Don't you boys think? And Zach said no I think mom's cheese burgers are better. I just smiled I was so happy he said that. That's one thing I do miss cooking allot. I love too cook. Baking I'm not really good at I can but not as good as cooking. I really didn't know how until I got with Floyd, He was really easy too cook for he'll eat just about anything. I guess that's why I'm not so picky any more. Well I talked to a very Important person yesterday and the conversation we had was very helpful. I'm very happy, proud and honored to have this special person in my life. always knows how to cheer me up. I really appreciate that. It's nice to no I have that person you can count on. Even when there so far away. You know who you are THANKS. Too all of you that support me through this thanks bunches. I always need that reminder that I have a allot of loved ones out there. Words can't explain how much it means too me. love ya